I remember the first day I met Jared. We were both working at Quiksilver and even though he came off quite arrogant and smug and a bad boy with his mohawk, I could tell he was a big softie. He had this warm brown eyes, thats what first attracted me to Jared. Those warm brown eyes. We would always mess around at work and he would take care of me when I came in hangover haha. In August I threw a party for my 20th birthday and I just remember calling our friend Griego over and over again to see if he was coming. I was so excited, when Jared showed it made my entire birthday. We spent four days together after that, just hanging out doing nothing but having a total blast anyways. It was after those four days that I became Jared's girlfriend. He was really good to me and we had so many good times. Quiksilver, our roadtrip to California, making fun of Telemundo, our when my friend Eva and I tried to put zebra stripes in his mohawk and he got mad at me because I did it wrong. Jared was there for me at a time I really needed him. I was at a rough spot in my life and he really helped me. We dated for about 5 or 6 months but unfortunatly parted ways. I know I broke Jared's heart and I still feel horrible about it. But I felt it was the right thing to do, I didn't think it was meant to be and it was unfair to all of us if we stayed together. We still hung out after that. It was hard sometimes, I knew how much he cared about me but he always seemed to care about my happiness more and I'll always be grateful for that. He was always there for me when I needed a shoulder to cry on or just someone to talk to. There was so much left unsaid between us, something I wish I could have done before he left. The night Jared died I thought it was a sick joke. Our friend Griego called me and told me that he wasn't sure if it was true but Jared had died in a car accident. Of course I called Jared's cell and he didn't answer. I was freaking out and eventually called the Cororner's Office on the way to my friend Eva's house. They asked me questions and ended up asking me to come down. Eva and two other friends came with me and I don't know how it would have been if I had gone alone. I ended up identifying Jared. It was the hardest thing I've ever done. Losing Jared has been the biggest blow I've ever been dealt. I have never lost someone that I cared about that much before. It hurts everyday and it still feels like it just happened. I loved Jared, I always will and he will always have a piece of my heart. I'm just glad I was able to help him in the way of being with his family. They have been the best support group one could ever have. I will never forget Jared. I think about him everyday. I hope that when I pass I'll see him again. Before his family left, his mom gave me the Ipod he had that I remembered from when we were together. It was broken but the other day I plugged it in, just to see. I was able to turn it on and go through it and randomly put it on shuffle. "I Swear" came on and I finally got my sign that everything will be ok. I'll always remember him best with his blonde mohawk, skateboard in one hand and of course in the other hand, his Ipod. xoxo I love you and I miss you Love, Jess